what's been happening in my life lately...

Well for one, i pretty much totally forgot about my blog...i'm sorry!BUT...due to getting the job and working as much as they would let me...we finally moved! It all happened kinda fast due to friends being in a bad situation and needing our help, but we got out of His parents place! We painted our room red with a black ceiling. It looks SO awesome! Master even got us a new bed!! Seriously, sometimes i wonder why i get out of bed in the morning. We both sleep like rocks..it's fantastic. Things have mostly settled into a decent routine with Him getting up with the dogs in the am to feed and let them out before He comes back to bed. i still only work part time but it gives me food and gas money as well as money to pay my car loan every month. Rent is friggen cheap because there are 5 of us living here. This place just feels SO much like home that part of me really hopes we can stay after the 1 year lease is up.

Also, remember that blog from back in December about me being jealous cause my friend is engaged? Well...no more being jealous for me. *squee* Master proposed on the 10th while we were away for the weekend in Frankenmuth for a renaissance festival thing. It was so romantic! So now we're slowly pulling things together to plan a wedding for next spring likely due to money and all that....But it's acctually happening! i couldn't be more excited or happy to know that it's really happening...He really does want to spend forever with me. :) So there will be more to come with that as it happens, just slow going for right now.

Even though we live with really close friends, we still haven't gotten to add in protocal or anything like that yet. i'm really hoping that as things fully settle in with paying rent and bills that we will have the time to get a routine going just for us. We've done the usual rough sex and what that implies for us, but nothing more really. So here's to hoping for that!But on that topic, while i was at work the other day Master stayed home cause He wasn't feeling well. He ended up doing some cleaning and putting away in our room as well as leaving me a suprise for when i got home. i came home and went to change(i seriously hate smelling like deli meat all the time...it's gross) and found the suprise He left me. In my dresser there had been a driftwood and seashell heart that He hung on the wall and looped my leather collar through the bottom. It was so sweet i nearly cried! i very much wish that i could wear my collar to work, but the only jewelry i'm allowed is my engagement ring. One day i'm sure i'll have a job that i can wear a collar to and i'm sure at that time He will get me a steel one appropriate to whatever job i am working.

Well, for now i think that's my update! i'm going to try my best to remember this is here and not go so long without writing. Maybe next time i'll have something else exciting to talk about that's acctually bdsm related...lol

well wishes,
scarlet

Yay job!..Boo not nearly enough time for anything good....

That's about the jist of it currently...i finally landed myself a job about 2 weeks ago and have been working my butt offthis week training. Another deli position but hey, it's a job...Which means we are one step toward having the money to move out and get our own space finally! Hooray!

Sadly, with everything going on with jobs and looking for a rental house kink has fallen to the bottom of our to-do list. It really sucks but at the same time it makes sense because of how little time we've acctually had together in the past week with my working early hours. Also being pushed to the bottom of this list is the idea of going to parties and munches due to money/working weekends for me. I really hope that that changes as well because i think that being around others in the lifestyle will help me alot in getting into a good head space all the time. Sometimes i feel like i'm just not as submissive as i think i am and that upsets me because i want this to work. i know that even without kink, we're together in the long run but without it seems akward. my last two big relationships before Him have definately been D/s themed, but only one was outwardly labeled as such. It's just something that seems to fit with me and with what i want.

Bah, i'm not really sure where exactly i was going with that except that i feel lately that i'm not being a good kajira to my Master because it feels like there are no rules, like everything has gone to the wayside becuase of jobs and stress at home. Hopefully things will move into a better direction soon once the job things falls into a better pattern. i've been trying to see my job as being in service to Him because i know it's important to Him for me to have a job right now so that we can continue forward.

So for now...That's what's going on...i'm going to try to start posting more even if it isn't kink related.

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